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Usually I would be calling you today and wishing you a happy birthday, and I would ask you how your day has been. You would be as positive as possible no matter what the circumstance was on your birthday. You might have even had to work, but this wouldn’t bother you because you were the best at what you did and you took joy in it. I loved that about you. That quality is a quality that I want to take with me in my life and in my future. Instead you are in a better place than I can ever imagine. This is my belief…which I will never give up on…
This year and forever more you will be spending it in heaven with Mocca and Poppa (Your loving parents). I can’t imagine the look on their faces when you entered the kingdom of heaven to be greeted by them and many others I am sure. I picture in my head that they just wrapped their arms around you, and told you how much they loved you and missed you.
My brother and I talked today about you over the phone. He had been trying to call me all day yesterday, but I was in the middle of my state volleyball tournament. I finally was able to call him this morning because I knew that if my brother called me 3 times in one day that he had something important to tell me.
He told me that he had the most vivid dream of you and him talking the other night. It brought so much peace in my heart just to have my brother open up and tell me about this conversation that had truly touched him. It touched me and made feel closer to you since you departed the earth 8 months ago. He said that you and him met in downtown Norfolk, Va at a library. In this dream he knew that you had already passed on and you knew you had as well. He began to ask you unanswered questions that he had been thinking about in the past months.
My brother told me that when he mentioned me and what I was going through and how much I was struggling with losing you, that you immediately teared up because you hated that I was hurting.
It brought me to tears over the phone because my Dad loved me so much, and it gave him pain that I was struggling. Although my Dad wasn’t in my life everyday, I never doubted how much he loved me and my brother.
He gave my brother a little closure in this vivid dream, and I considered it as a gift that in that moment I felt a closeness to Dad after him being gone for these 8 months….Sometimes we don’t have the answers and we don’t understand why things like this happen, but in these small significant moments we realize that Dad will do everything he can to stay close to us even if it’s through a dream….
Love you Dad